After much consideration I think it is time for me to go and get a neutral voice to speak into this journey, and by that I mean a shrink. I do feel that I need to talk some things through and for that voice to provide a neutral opinion or just a different opinion.
Thankfully today I am much better. My mood did improve and though I do know in that moment that it is just that - a moment - it's difficult to see it and feel it. I was subdued over the weekend. Friday night I sat at my mums place with the little sausage dog - Estha - as company, she was also subdued. We watched telly together and had a snooze together. She was the perfect company I needed. Total acceptance of me.
Saturday was spanish and I took in absolutely nothing! I did have a fabulous fruit salad afterwards and joined the Youngs for a kiddies birthday. That lifted my spirits. Nothing like watching kiddies stuff their face with sweets, flitter around with wings and plaster blush on their cheeks and armpits! Kyle told the little birthday girl,
Doone Bug, that the stuff you put on your face also goes on your armpits, and without even thinking about this, she promply applied a layer of blush to her armpits, pulled out her bling bling mirror and had a squiz to make sure the application was just so. She is 4! How can that not put a smile on your dial.
Sunday was another little kiddies party - this time lil Kayla - only turning a whole 1 this year and had mini wings. The rest of the day was spent smoking hubbly and watching SA idols and chilling.
Monday I had a fantastic work out at taibo. It was really a go go go session that was going to go on for two hours. We only did an hour and 10 because I have to get home, make dinner and be ready for Surviver.
Tuesday - oooh drama night. Though it didn't start out as such. I had an very enjoyable evening completing my gecko mosaic project and a couple of other mosaic projects: Pics are here....
The drama came about when I arrived home. There is a cat in our building which is quite aggressive and always spits and hisses and tries to claw you. I usually make sure I have something that can act as a barrier, usually my bag, when I walk past the cat....just in case. Well this cat, name = Ninja (don't laugh), came for me and swiped my leg, and as I tried to shoo him away with my bag, literally launched himself at me, jumped on my right arm and bit and clawed me quite badly. Okay the photos are taking forever to load - you can view the album on facebook "Ninja Cat Attack" So now I'm on a course of rabies injections, because he hasn't had his vaccines and just the extreme aggression he displayed.
Of course this drama put me in a little bit of a spin as I just didn't feel emotionally strong enough to handle it. I am happy to say that it didn't make me spiral into that dark place. I accepted it for what it was, knew that paying the R2500 in total was worth my life.
Now to fabulous news. Lost the weight I put on last week and then some. 2.7kg down! down down down. I reckon taibo is helping and so is the walking. Had a fantastic work out, eating healthy, allow myself a little healthy treat now and again and am not beating myself up about it.
I have to thank my friends, both online and here for all their support and encouragement.
Health is wealth.
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